I finally sat down to read it, and want to post parts of what I read and my thoughts on it. Being a LCSW and giving advice everyday, or nearly everyday to my clients, helps me to put my life into perspective and has helped me grow stronger. Where I was at 10, 18, 20, 25, 30, and even two weeks ago have changed. Much because of my life's experiences, what I feel has been thrown at me, how I have dealt with it and from the support of people around me.
I could #1 never ask for better parents and brother than the ones I have. They have always been by my side. I have heard and seen many parents that have not been as supportive as mine and it hurts. My parents have had a rough time due to things that have happened to me. They are strong to. I love them so much. I will say this over and over again I am sure in my blog. Despite the times I am mean and ugly to them, maybe seem like I don't care, I do.
Becoming a social worker, despite not making a lot of money and being poor and constantly struggling with money has brought me much insight into my life and also has given me an opportunity to nurture and change the lives of others. Just yesterday, a child I had worked with posted this.. {Having a child is the greatest blessing I have ever received. Not only was it a blessing having my son, it was a savior. Before I had gotten pregnant, I was a trouble maker,When I found out I was pregnant, I had stopped everything. The time I had my son, the feeling of wanting to do things I used to do faded, Not to mention I had a perfectly healthy baby. He was 7lbs and 14oz To this day, I know God was looking out for me. If I had never gotten pregnant, I will still be getting in trouble , I have been blessed. Having my son has given me every reason to love, live, and be happy. Happy 6th birthday Anthony I love you more than anything ♥} She has countless times told me that I was her second mother that I supported her. She wrote this to me, and it broke my heart. {I love you too Jenna Duffy , thank you because when everyone gave up on me you did not !! I'm so thankful god put you in my life ♥ } To have you know, this young lady got her HS diploma, went back and got her Nursing Certificate and now is attending college. She is married and has three beautiful sons.
There are many others that have touched my heart, she was one of my first I worked with in Foster care and I am so glad I made a difference in her life, because she has made a difference in mine.
By helping people, especially now that I am in private practice I am really using all of the skills I have know and tell my clients to use everyday and "it really works!!" I wish I would have believed it sooner and stuck with it. I am using a book I bought for myself when I was a senior in college...and if I had only stuck with it....I might have saved myself some pain and begun to believe in myself sooner. (Therapy takes awhile, change takes awhile. When you don't believe in yourself, changing that takes a while.) I have my good days, I have my bad days. But I am getting there.
Soooo back to this book....
The quote at the bottom of the book stated: {I will show God my appreciation for the gift of addiction and sobriety but caring the message through my behavior today.} So after reading the passage about a woman who is struggling with her new found addiction diagnosis and the changes and how that is going to affect her, I thought it was kind of apperpo to me and my recent Cancer diagnosis. How can I appreciate this "gift" God has given me. What positives can I take from it. There are always positives right? I do think there are if we look hard enough. I have found that I am as strong as I think I am. That I have more friends than I thought I did. That regardless of what happens. I am going to make the best of it and the changes that need to happen. (I need to work out, change me eating habits, go out and enjoy life more, and be more positive.) All of these are positive. So today I am going to carry that message....there are positives....and I am going to remember them on the darker days.
