So most of you have not heard from me in the past several days. I have been very under the weather. Nauseted, throwing up and headaed to the clinic Monday - Today to get meds and rehydrated, and it is scheduled until Friday. It all started Sunday afternoon. I was granted with a great Sat watching the HOKIES lose. No throwing up last night, but still ubber nauseated!
So that's it my friends. I have been sick, sleeping or well throwing up.
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Friday, September 14, 2012
Half way there.....
Wasn't that in a song?? Haha....My friend Clay wished me well this morning saying just that about the treatment day and it made me smile. I have been thinking about this treatment day all week, wondering what it will bring. How I will handle it. I want to count down the treatment days, but I am also petrified as to the aftermath of each one!! Especially when I have things I want to do afterwards. Like go to Bebe's Birthday Party, Thanksgiving dinner, go to Virginia Tech football games, or GASP, WORK!! Golly Gee!! They are all, well except work, at least week after my treatments. To be honest I love my job again. I have a great woman I work with/ for. A wonderful and sweet office manager. My clients are building up (when they don't cancel or not show up), and we are beginning a peer mediation group from therapists in the area once a month. I feel like my skills as a LCSW are growing and strengthening as is my own self worth and esteem in the process.
I also have a host of new medications and treatment methodoligies to try and beat the nausea, dehaydration, and constipation issues from last week. So hopefully if I can put these in place I will beat the sickness at the head and prevent anything from happeneing!! UGH!! Let's pray I can do this. I always think I am "burdening" people or that it is not that big of a deal. But "I" know they say not to do that. I will try to remember that this time. When I am drinking less....than I already a, drinking less than normal, I should go in and get an IV in the office. So I don't have to wait 7-10 hours in the ER. BC (Before Cancer)I was able to drink 2 - 3 water bottles (24 oz ), and now its about one, maybe a little more.
It's great I have received so many well wishes from people already, it brings tears to my eyes just knowing how loved and thought about I am throughout this whole process. It honestly makes it so much easier to go through. To know you are not alone in this process. I feel bad sometimes that I am not always able to give back to everyone in the same regards as you all are giving to me. I try but sometimes I just do not have the energy. I see what is going on, and silently pray, but It is hard for me to always keep up.
I need prayers for something else. I went to an appt where I am being tested for the BRCA1 and BRCA2 Mutation. I should know in 1-3 weeks the result. If I am negative for this, it could mean my breast cancer was caused by some other unknown mutation or something they are not sure about. So regular more frequent screening will be the route to go for the future. But If I am positive it could have a host of other implications for me and my family. I am trying not to worry about that now, as the incidence for it is low. I will get into the implications once I know for sure the results. But pray for a negative Mutation for the BRACA1 and BRACA2 Mutation. That would be the best result for me and my family at this point!!!
I love everyone for all of your support, from the smallest hello to the donations of money. Each one is huge to me. They all are important in their own way. I know we all have are own ways of giving and abilities and I welcome them all the time in any ways you have to give. The kids I see, (even though they do not know I have cancer) often draw me pictures, and that is super special in and of itself. I have lots of them still today.
LOVE TO YOU ALL! <3
I also have a host of new medications and treatment methodoligies to try and beat the nausea, dehaydration, and constipation issues from last week. So hopefully if I can put these in place I will beat the sickness at the head and prevent anything from happeneing!! UGH!! Let's pray I can do this. I always think I am "burdening" people or that it is not that big of a deal. But "I" know they say not to do that. I will try to remember that this time. When I am drinking less....than I already a, drinking less than normal, I should go in and get an IV in the office. So I don't have to wait 7-10 hours in the ER. BC (Before Cancer)I was able to drink 2 - 3 water bottles (24 oz ), and now its about one, maybe a little more.
It's great I have received so many well wishes from people already, it brings tears to my eyes just knowing how loved and thought about I am throughout this whole process. It honestly makes it so much easier to go through. To know you are not alone in this process. I feel bad sometimes that I am not always able to give back to everyone in the same regards as you all are giving to me. I try but sometimes I just do not have the energy. I see what is going on, and silently pray, but It is hard for me to always keep up.
I need prayers for something else. I went to an appt where I am being tested for the BRCA1 and BRCA2 Mutation. I should know in 1-3 weeks the result. If I am negative for this, it could mean my breast cancer was caused by some other unknown mutation or something they are not sure about. So regular more frequent screening will be the route to go for the future. But If I am positive it could have a host of other implications for me and my family. I am trying not to worry about that now, as the incidence for it is low. I will get into the implications once I know for sure the results. But pray for a negative Mutation for the BRACA1 and BRACA2 Mutation. That would be the best result for me and my family at this point!!!
I love everyone for all of your support, from the smallest hello to the donations of money. Each one is huge to me. They all are important in their own way. I know we all have are own ways of giving and abilities and I welcome them all the time in any ways you have to give. The kids I see, (even though they do not know I have cancer) often draw me pictures, and that is super special in and of itself. I have lots of them still today.
LOVE TO YOU ALL! <3
Monday, September 3, 2012
A trip to the ER can do wonders.
So the ending of my Two Terrible Horrible No good days landed me in the ER, as you all know. UGH!!! Fairfax Hospital ER is the epitome of Hospital ER waiting. It took FOREVER!! I was checked in at 7:15PM. And released at 2:05AM. All for three bags of Saline and two doses of Zofran.
Lot's of waiting between the triage, then after getting my blood checked, then after getting the first bag of saline before being moved to a room. Once we were in a room, smooth sailing!! I saw nurses, techs, and a doctor!! WOW, he even came in twice! :-) The nurses and techs were all super nice once we got to the room. Gave me and my mom lots of blankets cause it was sooo cold!! One guy tucked me in like a mummy with four or five of the blankets! :-)
Checking out...was told the bill would have been close to $2000. Thankfully, I have already met my out of pocket, and won't have to pay that. The two huge payments, that I already am working on paying off this year and that everyone who has "chipped-in" is also helping me with is enough. Until the deductible and out of pocket starts again January 1, with my first Herceptin Treatment.
It also helped my spirits seeing all those touching and uplifting words of encouragement for all of you on facebook. I have such a remarkable group of friends! Reading everying that everyone wrote, and there were so many of you, they kept pinging my phone made me feel loved. Made me feel like this:
I really did start to feel a lot better after the first bag of saline and the zofran(I am going to ask my doctor for zofran), but not enough to eat, like my dad kept joking. You wanna pizza? Popeye's Chicken? I was hungry.....my stomach was growing....that had not happened in several days. But still the thought of food was not appealing.
Tried to go home and took until 5:00AM to sleep. Slept until 8:30AM. Went over to mom and dad's and then mom and I went to lunch after she got her hair cut, and then we went back and watched baseball, and football flipping back and forth, while having Popeye's chicken for dinner. (I got my appetite back).
Lot's of waiting between the triage, then after getting my blood checked, then after getting the first bag of saline before being moved to a room. Once we were in a room, smooth sailing!! I saw nurses, techs, and a doctor!! WOW, he even came in twice! :-) The nurses and techs were all super nice once we got to the room. Gave me and my mom lots of blankets cause it was sooo cold!! One guy tucked me in like a mummy with four or five of the blankets! :-)
Checking out...was told the bill would have been close to $2000. Thankfully, I have already met my out of pocket, and won't have to pay that. The two huge payments, that I already am working on paying off this year and that everyone who has "chipped-in" is also helping me with is enough. Until the deductible and out of pocket starts again January 1, with my first Herceptin Treatment.
It also helped my spirits seeing all those touching and uplifting words of encouragement for all of you on facebook. I have such a remarkable group of friends! Reading everying that everyone wrote, and there were so many of you, they kept pinging my phone made me feel loved. Made me feel like this:
I really did start to feel a lot better after the first bag of saline and the zofran(I am going to ask my doctor for zofran), but not enough to eat, like my dad kept joking. You wanna pizza? Popeye's Chicken? I was hungry.....my stomach was growing....that had not happened in several days. But still the thought of food was not appealing.
Tried to go home and took until 5:00AM to sleep. Slept until 8:30AM. Went over to mom and dad's and then mom and I went to lunch after she got her hair cut, and then we went back and watched baseball, and football flipping back and forth, while having Popeye's chicken for dinner. (I got my appetite back).
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