Friday, July 6, 2012

Daily Meditation 2



{I always thought some people were just born with self-esteem and others not.  The fact is, the people with self-esteem may have learned to develop it sooner than others, and now it is my turn  -- Laurel Lewis } 

In some ways I think maybe I have thought this way.....from what I can remember I have had low self-esteem.  Although I think that maybe we all are born with it, and lose it due to circumstances and how we choose to deal with them, how we are able to deal with them and the support we have based on the way we have been "trained" to look at things.

So once we learn it is okay to live our lives outside the preconceived norm, and how we want, we can increase our self-esteem and be happy with who we are. 

It's hard for me, because I work with several clients who have self-esteem issues, clients my age, older, and much younger, and I tell them things that hopefully can help them see that they can see themselves in this new way.  I try hard to do it.  I know it is hard.  I let them know it is hard. But it can be possible.  And when they do it, they will begin to feel so much better.  The times I do, I do feel so much better.  Things don't matter....like not having a boyfriend, or being married, or having children yet, or owning a home yet....

My turn will come for those.  I know.  But sometimes it is hard.

This Cancer thing is another road block to get those things I want....makes me frustrated.....but I won't give up.

5 comments:

  1. Jenna you are an amazing woman and I am lucky to have you as a friend.

    JP

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    1. When does you chemo start or has it already?

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    2. My Chemo will start on August 3. I am doing some fertility preservation, just as a precautionay thing, incase the chemo makes me go into an early menopause and cause me not to produce any more eggs.

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  2. this may sound crazy, but I put you on my calendar for August 3rd so I can remember to send good thoughts your way!

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    1. You are so sweet!! Thank you. My treatment starts at 10:45am and is 5 1/2 hours long. They have to administer each drung (3 of them)one at a time into the port. I go back Aug 4th for a shot for 30 min (Nuelasta) to help increase my white blood cell count at 9:30am.

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